Ok, so this obviously is not my family....and the fact that it is not will never not hurt I'm starting to realize...but by the grace God, with the love and mercy that He has shown us now being given to each other, by perserverance, by mercies that are made new everyday, by faithfulness and forgiveness, by promises that are kept.....maybe... just maybe... one day... my kids can look at this and say that it is in fact theirs.
"Jesus, I am so humbled by all you have entrusted me with....a marriage of almost 10 years...3 beautiful healthy children...a wonderful home to raise them in...more than enough food...the privilege to stay home and not only raise my children but to teach them as well...the grace to accomplish all these things...family and friends...a voice to sing your praises...I could go on and on...but at the end of this list, everything on it would pale in comparison to your life...you gave it so freely...and you didn't have to. You could have looked down on humanity, seen what a mess of a person I would be...all the horrific choices I would make...all the times I would reject you...run from you...hide from your truths...drag your name through the mess I would make of my life... and simply say that I was not worth it. But you didn't. You suffered...bled...cried...died...all for me. Your love came to me unconditionally. And because of it, I'll never be the same...it is because of you that I am anything of worth....thank you!"
"And whatever I do, may it always bring glory to you"