Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Posted by Talysa at 11:39 PM
Monday, January 25, 2010
In a desperate attempt to not have to wash my hair (and dry it for 87 hours) I did not lay in the bed and ponder the thought of just washing my bangs so it would still look presentable. I did not head out the door only to discover it was raining...and that I had wasted 87 said hours of my life for nothing...because my hair looks like a dandelion gave birth on it when it's raining. I also did NOT go back in the house and get a plastic Publix bag...proceed to put it over my head...and walk out to the car...forever traumatizing my children with embarrassment. The bag did NOT have a hole in it. I did not discover that a certain freaksihly large poodle in our house had lost his lunch in one of the kids rooms...and then pretend not to see it till my husband found it...and cleaned it. That would make me a horrible wife...and an equally horrible human being in general.
Posted by Talysa at 10:10 AM
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Posted by Talysa at 2:47 PM
Monday, January 18, 2010
It's Monday. And I'm just not up for blogging. Not up for trying to be witty. Not up for trying to be clever. Not even up for caring if anyone reads this. I'm not up for a lot of the things that typically bring me joy these days. Not even my camera. I am broken. The images. The people. The children. The pain. The devastation. The tears. The loss. Haiti.
I cannot sleep without picturing the crowds of people and children on the streets. I cannot eat without thinking of people trapped under rubble. I cannot take a Tums without thinking of the thousands that are receiving Civil War type medical care with nothing to curb their pain. I cannot close my eyes without the images racing through my mind. And the children...don't get me started.
So often it is easy for me to sing songs or pray prayers such as "Break my heart for what breaks Yours God"...almost wishing I could rope them back in as they leave my lips...fearful of what that might actually look like...knowing the whole time that my heart isn't 100% behind the prayer I'm praying...the words I'm singing. But it can become even easier for me to allow the fear and doubt to drown out my faith...get busy...become self absorbed once again...find it easier to change the channel and start going about my daily routine...and forget. Not this time. See, it turns out God is still in the business of answering our prayers...whole hearted or not.
This time I am at a place of pushing through the fear and indifference that sets in...a place of needing to experience authentic Faith...something bigger than myself...something that expresses true religion...the kind Jesus exemplified during His life on Earth. This time I want to be on mission with God...be ready to act...be fearless and full of courage...be ready to say "YES" to God without even considering the what ifs.
So my husband and I are digging deep into our pockets and giving...renewing our passports online... and positioning ourselves to be ready to GO should we be called. We are pressing into the fears (did I mention I hate airplanes?) and uncertainties...we are preparing our hearts to step out in faith. I don't know if any of this means that God will ever actually put us on the ground in Haiti...or any other foreign soil for that matter...I can only say that stepping outside of myself...getting out of my selfish flesh...stepping into the will of God...and knowing I'd GO in a heartbeat...gives me a peace that I could never explain this side of Heaven.....it feels good...it feels right. And I mean that...whole heartedly.
Posted by Talysa at 2:16 PM
Monday, January 11, 2010
Maggie managed to make this little snowman early in the day...
Aidan, sweetie..put the snowball...no seriously...see this camera mommy's holding? Yeah, the one mommy gets super protective of? You know, like bears protect their young? And never lets anyone touch? Riiiiight...not even daddy...Yeah, go ahead and put that down sweetie and no one has to get hurt here ...mmk?
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Posted by Talysa at 3:01 PM
Sunday, January 3, 2010
In however many days I am given in the year 2010, I resolve...
to be more true to myself....
more in tune with who I am in my 30's...
more comfortable in my own skin...
less aware of the flaws and imperfections I see...
to see myself through the eyes of Christ...
to see others through the eyes of Christ.
to be more inclined to speak up for myself...
to have the courage to say "yes!"...
to have the courage to say "no!"
to have the patience to be still ...and just listen...
to be less inclined to care what others think of what I say or do...or don't.
to be more inclined to care what God thinks of me.
to worry less about the future and time I am not promised and worry more about living in the moment I'm given.
to love my husband better...
to love my children more intentionally.
to be content with what I have...
to be content with what I don't have.
to spend less time worrying over things that are unfinished...
or not accomplished...
or just not to my standard yet...such as my house...or the 15 pounds I need to lose.
to become even more intimate with my Savior...
to dig deeper into His word...
to increase my faith and my trust in Him.
to get a pedicure...never had one.
to be conscious of how much time I spend on the computer. time i can't get back.
to be less concerned with my own needs and more aware of others.
to be more obedient.
to take more baths.
to get up at 7am...except maybe for Saturdays.
to make more time to take care of myself.
dare to paint a piece of my furniture turquoise.
to go to the eye doctor. It's been too long.
make Creme Brulee.
have a yard sale.
to paint my master bedroom.
to go to an auction.
make a lemonade stand with my kids this summer.
to have company more often. And not care if I've cleaned.
help my kids make a tent in the living room...and play with them in it.
to be more thankful.
How about you all?...what are you planning to do or do differently in this new decade of your life?